Should

When SHould Turns Into Can't | Sassymonkey.ca

"Should" is a small word that belies the enormity of feeling behind it. 

I feel like I'm all about the shoulds these last few months. 

All the things I should be writing. All the things I should be doing. 

The shoulds echo in my mind, repeating over and over until they turn into a cacophony of can't.

Because I should do x I can't do y until x is done. 

I find myself trapped in the shoulds, attempting to tell them to shut up as they grow louder and louder, and my silence grows deeper. 

And so I sit, my fingers poised above the keyboard, trying to shout down the self-imposed silence of should.