Job Hunting

I've been job hunting for several months now and I hate it. Applying for jobs, submitting cover-letters - that stuff I don't mind. What I dislike are the interviews and the waiting.

This is what you need to know about me. I don't bullshit. I don't schmooze. I do not suck up. I won't pretend to be perky and bubbly in an interview because that's not who I am. I will be polite. I will answer your questions honestly and to the best of my ability. I will be respectful. I will be the same person that you would deal with day-to-day that I am in that interview. I will not pretend to be something that I'm not and I am not, and do I want to be, your BFF.

I just went through three rounds of interviews with a company. They decided to opt out, and you know what? That's just fine. The last round of interviews was really, I believe, to meet me in person to see if I would gel with them. I know someone who works there and they were told part of the reason they got the job was because when they met in person it was like they had always known them. That is not me. I am simply not that way when I first meet anyone. I need to sit back, observe the situation, and I hold my cards close to my chest. i can know people for years online and when I meet them in person the first time I will be quieter than they expect. I fully understand that not everyone gets that, or likes that, and that's just the way things are. Furthermore I fully understand, and respect, that it doesn't work for everyone and if that means I don't get that position that's fine with me.

Because that's who I am. I want to get a job where who I am is ok. I do not want to get a job pretending to be someone that I am not. Not getting the job really does mean it wasn't the right one for me. The right one for me is out there and when I find it, it will be fabulous.