An obvious realization

So, since I said the other day that this year is about "trying harder" I have been. And I have to tell you it's been pretty darned easy. And for one reason - work. Work has been delightfully, wonderfully, splendidly quiet the last few days. One of the things I absolutely loathe about my job is that a lot of involves me having to be reactionary. I can write a to do list before I start in the morning and then I check my email and it all goes to shit and by the end of the day I've done next to nothing on my list that I needed to get done and yet I've worked all day and I'm exhausted. Fun eh? Not so much. So at the end of that day (which is rarely an 8 hour day) the only thing I want to do is sit on the couch and stare blankly at the TV.

But right now everyone is either still on vacation or assuming everyone else is on vacation and it's lovely. Really. It's quiet. The phone isn't ringing. My emails during the day are manageable. And at the end of the day I still have energy to do things.

It's one of those "normal" jobs that people talk about.

Don't get me wrong, I don't mind working extra hours when required and for a purpose. But the endless slog of doing extra hours for no real goal was really wearing me down at the end of the year. And really, when I say I spent two weeks on my couch doing nothing, I mean I spent two weeks on my couch doing nothing. And I did recharge (finally). But I don't want to return to that routine. And I'm not sure how to avoid it. But gosh darn it I'm going to try. Even if it means blocking off several hours in each day where I'm doing nothing BUT work and not take any calls or check email (man that's hard for me...).

There will also be times when the scale tips one way or another but I'm aiming for more balance.