Step 1

Well I did it. I joined a gym yesterday. Truth be told, signing all the papers and forking out the cash is a lot easier than actually *going* to the gym. My anxiety level wasn't too bad yesterday. I'm paid up until July 1 when they will start taking money out of my account. No cancellations are possible. If I want to stop the membership I'd have to sell it to someone. So I'm locked in a for a year. I think this is a good thing.
I got a tour of the gym. It's nice. It's much, much smaller than the last gym I belonged to. It made me wish I had made full use of that gym and all its facilities and services. But this one is small and clean. The weight room still scares the crap out of me but it was bound to no matter what.

Today should be my first trip to the gym. And it will be. But I'm afraid my anxiety is getting the better of me and causing my tummy to be rather unhappy. Sigh. So I'm going to wait a bit and give my tummy a bit of time to calm down before I go. And work on remembering the combination for the new lock I had to buy. You see, I actually already own two combination locks. I can remember the combination for one but of course I can't find that one. The one that could find I cannot remember the combination. I know where the combination *is* but of course I can't find that notebook. Notice a pattern here? I can't ever find things when I need them. Another case for decluttering I suppose.

I suppose some of you are wondering why I want to go to the gym? I have multiple reasons. I need something for stress release. I was getting therapeutic massages for awhile but ummm they hurt. A lot. But even the RMT said that I needed to find something for stress release. My ability to tie myself in knots is really quite impressive. And well, while massages helps with the whole unknotting it doesn't help prevent it. I also need to get out of this darned apartment. Don't get me wrong, I love my little hobbit hole. But I really ought to leave it more.

Last week I spent a lot of time out of the house running errands etc. I found that I was able to sleep better and I had a wee bit more energy. I'm tired of being tired all the time and not being able to sleep at night. I need to do *something* and the gym seems like a good thing to do.

I haven't figured out exactly what my schedule is going to be like yet. It will take some tuning as I'm hoping to avoid the peak times. Ideally I'd like to be able to go in the middle of day but I'm not sure how often that will be possible with work. More likely now than at the beginning of this month to be sure.

Whatever schedule/routine I work out will change in the next few months. My plan is to start off slow on the cardio machines until my body gets used to regular exercise again. And I can't handle the stress of classes and the dreaded weight room quite yet. One itty bitty battle at a time I say. I'm hoping that once I get used to the gym the weight room will seem a little bit less scary (ha! I can dream).

So one hurdle down...I'm not thinking how many others there are.