Morphing into my momma

I know a lot of people morph into their mothers when they have kids and suddenly find themselves saying things they said they'd never say to their kids.  Me? No kids. No plans to have kids. So that's not the route I'm taking.

No. When I can't sleep I get up and do dishes. That's what my mother does. At least I have not yet started getting up in the middle of the night because I can't sleep, making myself a cup of coffee and then going back to bed. My mother does this. Last night I was up between about 3:30 and 5:30 am.  I then promptly fell back asleep and slept through my alarm. Yay me (advantage to working at home - if I'm 15-30 minutes late no biggie as long as I don't have a phone meeting and work extra at the end of the day...or don't take a lunch).

I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired and yet I can't sleep. I don't remember the last time I slept through the night. It was sometime last week.  I've been trying to be a good little doobee and go to bed early but it's not working. After tossing and turning for an hour in bed I said "screw it!" got up and did my dishes. And cleaned my counters. And organized some recycling stuff (note to self - take recycling and green bin stuff out tomorrow). Then hauled out my brand new coffee grinder and ground some flaxseed to put in the freezer for the next two weeks and then figured I might as well grind some beans for tomorrow morning. So I did. And then I set up my coffee maker so all I have do it turn it on in the morning.

[Side note: I bought the generic Braun coffee grinder  that everyone had in university but that no one actually used to grind coffee. It's very odd to be using it to grind coffee after seeing it used for year for ummm other things (I didn't own one or do this myself of course...I just visited friends that did...mostly).]

Then I hauled out my blender and it's sitting and ready to go to make a breakfast shake (with ground flaxseed!). Then I figured if I'm going to make a breakfast shake I should probably make some OJ to put in it.  So I did (note to self: buy more frozen juice). And then I poured myself a glass of OJ and sat down to write this thinking that maybe sitting and drinking OJ and writing would make me sleepy. It's NOT WORKING.

I guess I could always sweep...or tackle that pile of papers that I've been ignoring...

I think part of my problem is that I just have too much clutter going on right now. Physical clutter ( that the Ikea purchases will hopefully make go bye-bye) and brain clutter (work clutter, family clutter, just clutter clutter). Plus my sinuses are killing me.  I'm sick of being sick...oh wait, I mentioned that already right? I actually remembered that I had a small humidifier and hauled that out tonight. I used to have some menthol-y stuff to put in it but I couldn't find it (probably got tossed in a move).  So I filled it up, plugged it in and stuck my face over it for a bit (helps the sinuses and a free facial - score!).  I put my glasses on for a second cause I was trying to see what Piper was doing and then took them off. Apparently they got a bit heated in those seconds I had them on as when I picked them up after I was done steaming myself they were a bit warped. Luckily I was able to bend them back into a wearable shape.  Have I mentioned I need new glasses? Cause I need new glasses. I could also stand to win the lottery but I don't think that's happening any time soon either.

Yeah...still not sleepy. I guess I'm off to find more puttering to do. Hmm I still have laundry that needs to be put away...

By the way - Piper is very confused as to why I am up and puttering around as it was clearly bedtime because I was in bed, the light was off and she was sleeping in her spot at the end of the bed. I don't think she's a big fan of this whole me not sleeping thing either.